Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Reflections....As Hijrah 1430 and 2009 Flies In....

I am most thankful for good health....a functioning brain that enables me to think - decide & consider in making decisions, families and friends and the pleasures and rizki from Allah swt.

As I bade farewell to 2008.....my happiness are in...

  • Adzrul graduated from Kursk and now working in Selayang Hospital.
  • Azlan got his promotion
  • Sg. Serai completed renovation and now partially ready for stay
  • Ayah K'tan went for Hajj
  • I got to get some lessons from Nora..yeah...
  • Meeting CT both times I was in M'sia
  • Taking care of Hajj kids..
  • Ayman, Zayd & Hannah changes....
  • Zayd & Hannah forthcoming trip to Zurich..
  • Ayman overcoming his ups & downs and maintaining to be more consistent..
  • Eidul Fitri and part Ramadhan with Adzrul in Dhahran...
  • Tenant for Cahaya Height

My hopes...

  • To get better with my word-to-word Quran translations class
  • Ayman will fare better in IB and pursue his ambitions
  • That our health can be better...
  • Pick-up the skills in DP..for my own self satisfaction
  • Be more consistent in my habits..
  • Peace on Earth...Ms.Congeneality Sandra Bullock
  • Many..many more...

Monday, December 29, 2008

Wanderings....

Most important is what you state at the end of your life...since we don't know when we will die we have to strive to live keeping our faith and away from sins....O'Allah make us die in the faith of Iman and make us to the ranks of the pious..

There are many stories with respect to this as guidance like the man who has killed 99 men and keep asking if he shall be forgiven until he died as to his killing of the men...he was on his way to get/find forgiveness when he died.......**this story can be found in Surah Al-Maidah..

An abid who was a pious person and due to the whispeing of syaitan he finally died as a disbeliever.... The abid was asked to take care of a lady by her brothers..although he followed strictly and keep his distance but by the wispering of syaitan he slowly began to get contact and rape the lady and killed her when she got pregnant and hide the truth from her brothers..he was finally caught and known what was done and was going to be killed when he ransomed his faith so that he will be saved from the punishment and set free..and he denounce his faith when syaitan said that the abid will be saved but that is what he must do first to get syaitan's help....the story can be found in Shaik Anwar Awlaki " The Hereafter "...

As I was trying to recall the many stories, to help me in my own wanderings...Yet again the news of the current attack by the Israelis on Gaza and killed many Muslims. What can we do....??

Awal Muharram..

Salaam Maal Hijrah / Awal Muharram to all....

As for me..many reflections the year that has passed...many hopes for the year in coming. Alhamdulilah for the graces of Allah swt. May we are kept firm in faith and on the straight path always insya'allah....

Week In Review

  • Sunday 21/12/2008 was Hannah 13th. Birthday...looking at 5 years we are here couldn't believe the young lady has grown. We went for dinner at Applebees. Thus it was a dinner for Zayd too....since his b'day on 23/12 celebrating 15 years of life. I told them it should actually be for moms since they are the ones who has to endure pain for more than a day. babies just has to look cute...
  • Telephone bill shocker SR2000....for this month!!
  • Tuesday 23/12..today is Zayd's 15th. Birthday....and also the day I get my new counter top in the kitchen..looks nice now...
  • OMG...the heater broke and leaks in the garage...by the time I realise it..the whole room was flooded. Got to remove many stuffs out and Aramco maintenance came to remove the carpet..now its bare and cold. Not sure if the wet carpet gonna dry and smell ok to be re-installed..if not carpet baru pulak..
  • Over the week..sooo many people dok mengeluh exchange rate is tumbling down..we are facing abt 25% reduction now..but alhamdulilah....isteri, anak & harta adalah ujian Allah swt semata-mata...

Monday, December 22, 2008

How Do You Do What You Have To Do..??

I believe we always have choices like either YES or NO..This or That..Go or Stay...Accept or Decline...Sometimes there are more choices that you can go for....Anyway..how do you decide to get angry at something that has happen or not to get angry and yet reprimand the offender..how about when this got to do with your kids...

If tak take action..takut jadi..Anakku Sazali with Bapak tawu..nye... If you take the wrong action takut pulak lain akibat nye..So do you really have choices here??? Takut juga tak fair and dituduh unfair...adik tu takpe..bila abang tak boleh pulak...and so on...

How do you say or show that you love each of your kids the same..No doubt you love all of them without question..But indeed you actually love each of them differently..But fairly?? How do you choose or even decide this?? This is the matter of fact question for me...You can't even say that you love A more than B bcos that's not it..it's just that its different in a way with each child or person...

How can you say you still love soebody but do not want to have anything to do with them? Not even to make time to see them...? Most times people are judged by their actions in addition to what they say....

Anyway...to make mistakes and realising it... is to regret it happening..with regret than come actions of preventing it and learn from it..to rub salt into an open wound is by no means will make somebody learn from their mistakes. Will this be enough? Sometimes yes and sometimes no..so back to the dilemma....Poneng kepalo den...

Hannah is 13th yesterday ad Zayd will be 15th. tomorrow

Hannah was 13th yesterday....no party..only dinner at Applebees which she couldn't finish..Anyway it was nice...

The thoughts that goes on in my mind yang keeps me occupied most hours ....

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Summaries....

Since my last entries....these are the things that happened. Will talk about them more later...

  • Zayd also will be going t Zurich with Hannah...at the moment I do not have any plans to go with them due to other commitments plus it is only a 4 day trip for them.
  • I was in Malaysia from 14/11 till 30/11...
  • Attended Shaikh Yusuf Estes talk at USJ2 masjid on 24/11..
  • Villa Subang Alam is ready after renovation still under inspection for further works..install AC, curtains, kitchen cabinets..bought a washer & dryer first..just in case..
  • Adzrul start work at Selayang Hospital on 17/11..got sort of an efficiency quarters...bought some soft furnishing to make it comfortable n cosy...
  • I attended a few classes with Norana and met Zahirah my blogger craft friend...learn some stroke works...hope to replicate them soon...
  • Was driving in heavy rain ost times in Msia..
  • Had to go to Munawarrah a couple of times to get the tudungs..couldn't believe it is usually sold out by afternoon...Grab about 20++ for Dhahranian's.. it was sold out too..only a few left to show...
  • Took care of several kiddies & teenagers while their parents perform Hajj...sweet.. especially at chow time when everything goes beautifully...
  • Had a BBQ for Hajj party....will post some pics soon...

This week is clean-up time plus trying to generate enough motivation to start my evening walk again and to paint some stuffs..plus make some floral crafts...there's demand but supplier ni still hybernating....

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Hannah's News..Zurich here I come..

The day before on Nov.10th...Dhahran School had it's first concert for the year...During the concert it was announce the names of those who qualified for the Honor Band & Choir reps for the school. Hannah has been vying for a spot and way early in Sept'08 she has begun her practices of the music pieces until audition in end-October..she demanded to get extra help by getting tutoring from her music teacher after school..kene bayar...hu..hu..SR100 for half an hour. I tanya juga apa yg teacher tu ajar in the half hour..she said..listen to while she's playing and if a note is not hit than she will have to do it over again..I guess basically..it's hitting the notes and play the pieces fluently..if I can call it that...She was determined to go to Zurich, Switzerland.. partly nak tengok if ada snow..he..he..and I told her it's a beautiful country...So almost daily she practices...at the expense of some other grades dropping a notch..but hey..her effort pays off "She made it to Zurich, Switzerland...." She shall go in Feb '09...with 8 others from school...

But the surprise came later too...Zayd was asked to sit for audition again and next week to play his piece..while Hannah chose the French Horn..Zayd is playing the thrombone...Me..I dont know any bits of it..whether the sound is ok or not..only..that I bear all the noise coming out and I hope my neighbors do too..so far no complaints... back to Zayd...his band teacher talk to Hannah whether Zayd even try out the music pieces and decided to quit and not do audition. Hannah says yes... The teacher knows Zayd temperament... quit first don't try if it gets too hard... we always tell him..try first than quit...he..he... BUT if the teacher asked him directly he will have no choice not to do it...Well..his teacher knows this..and yesterday cornered him to practise and sit for audition.. as there's a place for 1 more thrombone player and he asked Zayd to try it out.. I believe this is a nice gesture bcos ramai lagi yang boleh main jugak... but I did get a comment from him few years back when we talk about Zayd...he is lazy no doubt to practise his pieces.. but he gets them easily when he put in the time to practise..Huh..??!! And according to the teacher..he seems to play with his heart not just doing the notes..Huh..??!!! But whatever it is.. we had to forked out nearly RM6k to buy him the thrombone in KL in 2007 and haul it back to Dhahran.. and all the time we bought the wrong type...not for the bass type with an extra turning but the normal type with straight turns..Urghh...I text his teacher asking..habis camno?? Dia jawab..no problem Mrs. Azlan.. it's okey...so okey lah jadinya... adalah BACH tu tersadai je if Zayd does not play it. Hannah changed from trumpet to French Horn so tak perlu beli since sooo expensive....save sikit....

Sunday, November 02, 2008

Come 17th. Nov..He's off to Selayang Hospital

Adzrul phoned from Pangkor this afternoon saying that he has got the offer letter. Yep..he got posted to one of his three choices...he's going to do housemanship at Selayang Hospital.

Moga dipermudahkan segala urusan......

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Dr. Adzrul's Off To Induction...Nilai & Pangkor

Today Adzrul's off for his tatabina negara 5 days induction than on 1st. Nov off again to Pangkor for a 2 week further induction into serving for the government. Than probably on the last day he will get his posting. Although he went to Nilai today slightly down for yet again not passing his driving test due to the now "round-about blues"..Insyaállah..he will get thru soon enough.. certain things need patience..eh..he..he...

For the sending off to induction, I believe many families will send their love one there full with pride for what has been accomplished. Same joy we felt here by everyone but I just couldn't make it due to the distance and time frame..I believe deep in his heart he will know just how much I would like to trade things and to proudly send him off..just like when he got his degree on his graduation day..we had to miss it too due to repat to Msia..I would think due to our living conditions plus with what Allah swt has set forth..we can make plans but only HE will make whats best come true...and for those not as we wanted come true..we just have to endure and believe its for the best..Mama doakan..you will be kept safe and healthy and successful in whatever you do...May all obstacles be broken down and you get thru with ease...may your faith be steadfast to HIS way...May you be strong and fair in your dealings and may your wishes come true...

Many words may have not been said but Syukur to Allah swt..we get to taste the fruits of our labor..All your hardwork has been rewarded but there still remain many long and winding road that you have to get true..Stay true to your heart and firm in your believe..May you not be tainted by the colors of this world but emerge strong and clear..You are what you are..we are so proud that our hearts might burst if you were to know..you have made it this far may you make it further..We have no regrets coz' if we do we might not be what we are today..although we wish that we could have done better in certain areas but we are forever grateful...the regrets as we told you are that we are always apart..but if not for sacrifices certain things may not be as it is today..some people maybe lucky to have it all but to some we do have to make choices...May our choices be the right one we take....

Though it pained my heart to just let you go on your own with only your uncle to see you off on this another mark of an important day in your life journey...while others have their family around them..believe me we do wish that we are there...and I hope in spirit we are there with you..May someday we get to all be together again just like the last Eid but while we are not may the pleasures remains in our heart.

All the best ya..Dr. Nik Adzrul...May you be the best that you can be...

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Happy 18th. Birthday..Nik Ayman Haniff Azlan

My 2nd. son..Ayman...who was long awaited for after about 8years of abg.Adzrul being an only child. Seems just like yesterday..now today he's 18 and soon will be going of to college.

May he have the strength to endure whatever the world dished out to him..May he has the perseverance to go on..the patience to wait and continue..May he be strong and realise all that he has to offer..Moga teguh iman and jadi anak yang soleh..amin...

We will always love you...no matter what...





#22 Jln.Sg. Serai, Subang Alam

Basically we did external works by putting extra roofing on the terrace and porch-front. The left photo shows the before and the right shows the after half-way thru the renovation...On the terrace we put the side roofing..initially the idea was for a pergola but it evolves into the now roofing with Malay style and wooden panels as ceiling... On the front porch..originally the double-door opens to the garden...but now it opens to a resak floor decking with fencing...the other renovation was for the wet-kitchen and closing of the space meant for parking and shift the front door..I hope to get more photos soon...it's now in the final stages of painting and cleaning... We went thru many ideas of how it should be..choosing the contractor and the budget available was the main concerns but I believe we are now in a win-win situation. The budget is increased by about 20% due to the sudden surge in material costs and also due to exchange rates..we lost some $$ when we transfer $ to the bank from saudi in USD...but it's no choice of ours and we can't do much. But En. Zul the contractor was/is very obliging thru'out the stages and Sani monitors and feedback wonderfully..eventhough we are not there but thru' his constant emailing we manage to "see"how things developed...Syukur..
The reason to putting the roofing mainly bcos the wind blows rain and dust etc..into the house. The double doors and windows got damaged to and has been replaced by the developer. Eventhough we are not staying there yet..my heart strings are now being pulled for wanting to live there.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

No:22 Jalan Serai....Subang Alam

Today..received latest news that the interior works will be starting..thus marks the end of the renovation for the side roofing and kitchen of the above address. What we see is only vi photos that are send to us by our friend Sani. But...fening to select the paint colors..to decide all the other trimmings..to decide the kitchen cabinets design..Honestly...we went thru same process for the kitchen renovation and side roofing..but now its almost complete and it looks good... will upload the photos soon...

Friday, October 10, 2008

Calling for Candidates...& the 10th. day of Eid...


This was taken at RT Eid day yesterday....Adzrul's is going back to Malaysia today...Alas...the togetherness here in Dhahran is on pause till the next available time...He's going back to complete his driving test and maybe plus other things required while waiting to be called for induction...and from then on the application for candidates is kept open..so that the selection process can meet the dateline..ha..ha.. Time flies so fast..the kids are growing...
Bye Adzrul..see you in a bit..take care..stay safe...be the best that you can for the sake of Allah swt..Insyaállah see you in Malaysia in December if all goes well ya..
Hannah having her scuba lessons yesterday..she's all red for being in the sun too long...

Friday, October 03, 2008

Eid Day 3..Open House 316 Hofuf Drive...


Menu of the Day...

  1. Raya Cookies & Cake & Desserts..cakes by Zahrah, Chocolate cake by yours truly..lupa pulak nak letak choc chips...Baskin Robbins to eat withTapai..Agar2 by Za..

  2. Nasi Putih with Gulai Ayam Cili Padi, Goreng Kicap Daging, Sambal Udang @ cooked by Aida Ritz and Sayur Campur.

  3. Pulut Kuning with Rendang Ayam..courtesy of Ana Mat Shah

  4. Mee Rebus ala..ala..CW

  5. Laksa Johor

  6. Spagetti Bolonaise ala..ala..AuntyRozie

  7. Satey ayam,daging,perut with Nasi Impit & Kuah Kacang catered from MK..added mini hot-dogs a hit with the kids..he..he..non healthy..

  8. Tapai courtesy of Shalita..

  9. Desserts and such from friends..thanks..thanks...

  10. Drinks..Orange Sunquick, Tea tarik by Shalita, Nescafe by Zahrah, Pepsi & Al-Rabie Orange..
The table looks full of food but the gimmick was the two spagetti dishes requires many side dishes so more containers...he..he..

I had prepared for the homecooked item from the nite before after a raya visit to Su Harun's in Ras Tanura...It went on till 4am in the morning..Hannah was awake printing and counting the HR envelopes..tahun nie rezeki nak bagi duit raya...he..he..

The bakar satay geng from MK..Yazid and Haniff came about 2:30pm..Elsa came abt 2pm to help with clean-up...First group of guests from Ras Tanura came abt 3:20pm..'families of Zul, Ghazali,Azman,Shamsudin,Ruzailan..okey..if I can recall the wives name righ..Iza,Su,Ila,Jue & Yasmin....Hah..the food is not served yet..so they got to wait awhile till satay is ready and the gravies are put in serving dishes...

Table layout..head of line was the cookies & cake counter, side counter for drinks...the line continues with the nasi putih&dishes, Mee Rebus, Laksa Johor, Pulut Kuning & Rendang, Tapai, Nasi Impit & Satay ends it...I need to borrow a folded 6foot table from Shalita since my table is only a 6-seater...

As for food..the spagetti Bolognaise was the first to go..although I did make it using a 5 quart size pot..We had to make a refill on the 18-litre Sunquick dispenser..

Later will continue with the story..nak siap pergi raya rumah Azizah Nawawi pulak...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidul Fitri..from Dhahran


Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri....Maaf Zahir & Batin...


Maaf..was caught up in the moment to get things done before and during Eid that updating took a back seat....furthermore..the internet and also phone line was really..really bad...
This is the family together after 6 years of missing a member. We use the camera timer to get this photo done..what a funny time..even Zayd who was grumpy finally put in a smile and put on the top of hi aju Melayu.....mostly the other photos were with either half of me in or gone..well..this is the best there is...But..no matter what all were smiling photos.. It was eventful Eid..ha..ha..

Friday, September 26, 2008

Lailatul Qadar

The best of nites...more than a 1000 nites...keep on reciting...

Allahumma Innaka Áffuwun Tuhibbul Karimun Äfwafáfu'anni..

The letter with ' is an ع ..so pronounce it as such...

Nite of 27th. Ramadhan

Subhanallah..we have reach the 27th.nite of Ramadhan..although it was said that Lailatul-Qadar will fall on any days within the last 10 nites of Ramadhan more inclined to the odd nite...Many belief that it is on the 27th. nite...Insyaállah..if it's our luck the best of nites more than 1000 nites will be ours...Doa..doa..as much as you can...do good deeds...read Quran...etc..etc...

With this 3 more days of fasting..and I havent even start with Eid preparation or even buying the required groceries..maybe tomorrow as for now trying to grab as much as possible the possibilities of the nite.

Unfortunately..I am not in a very good mood today..probably I was annoyed and feeling angry with what annoyed me. Keep reminding myself that its Ramadhan..What is it that I am annoyed with? Well..for some people to think that they can show whatever emotions they want..be it angry or sulking or defensiveness or even outright disobedient....If you are angry fine..but why over such small matter a voice can be raise..why cant you just keep your cool and ask properly.. as if the matter cannot be resolved by talking/asking nicely..and as if its not enough you got to throw things around albeit just a piece of paper just to make sure to show that you are angry...or piss off with the matter....and for me to just absorb it and let it pass..Hmm..enough is enough.. how long can a person stand..so now I am the one annoyed and angry that I got to swallow all that is being dished...I ahve to always keep my cool while all the Tom,Dick & Harry around can just show their emotions...Maybe one day while its too late it will sink in..but for the time being.. I have a more important thing at hand..to ask Allah swt forgiveness for all my sins and may the blessings of Lailatul Qadar blanket us on this nite...

Monday, September 22, 2008

Night of 23rd. Ramadhan..

Tonite will be the 23rd. nite of Ramadhan..it's the odd nite in the last 10 days and seeking Lailatul Qadar.... Azlan and Adzrul off to Madinah this morning and they have arrive well... Been telling Adzrul to take this opportunity being in Masjid Nabi during part of last 10 days of Ramadhan to seek divine help...Doa..doa..doa...Who knows if we can get the holiest of all nite dawn upon us...Subhanallah....

Allahumma Innaka Áffuwun Tuhibbul Áfwafa' Fu'anni...ÖÁllah you certainly Pardons, Love to Pardon, So pardon me...

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Day after 46th. B-Day...Part. 2


The family together for Iftaar since 2002 at Tony Roma's.

Since today is Thursday...and we have the Quran class..it's my excuse not to cook for Iftaar.. he..he..again..banyak excuse kadang tu... Anyway..since Ayman pun balik from Bahrain to meet up with abg. Adzrul.. We decided to buka puasa at home with drinks and dates first and solat Maghrib and than go out to eat... We were planning to go either Applebees or TGIF..but Zahrah said that there's a new place in town of similar type..Tony Roma's at the corniche in Al-Khobar. So there we head after solat.. Although upon entering it's not that extremely inticing and certain foods on the menu was not available...we thought that TGIF would have been better.. Anyway...we did order some appetizers..Buffalo Wings and Shrimp K#$^%$.. it taste good..than the main menu arrive..whoa..size orang putih..pengsan nak ngabieh kan.. But the taste is good..we had become disappointed with Applebees actually bcos on the last 2 dinners we had there..first the food was over grilled and the next time the taste wasn't there...Mahal jelah dapat...and MK pulak dah ada..most of our dinner out was at MK's... But than again...kids like to try out new places..mak ikut je..anything if tak yah masak...

Day after 46th. B-Day...



This was my birthday bash..he..he..makan nasi ayam & first iftaar together with Adzrul since 2002..What more can I ask for....

Yesterday was quite an eventful day as it was my 46th. B-day 17th. Sept...alhamdulilah menginjak keusia ni dlm bulan Ramadhan. Moga segala doa-doa Allah swt perkenankan. But what I would like to write here were about past few days events...


  • Sept. 16th....The day I was actually looking forward..one reason is THAT reason and another is bços Adzrul will be flying to Dammam from KLIA. Hope he has a good trip. He arrived safe and sound at about 9:00pm...We drove to the airport after Maghrib to pick him up...He was tired and decided to head on home but making a shawarma stop at KFUPM Mishwar restaurant. The mango juice was nice...This Ramadhan is the first after 7 long years we are fasting together since he went to Kursk to study...This Eid will be the first after 7 years too..since 2002...My head is clamouring with all the things that I want, might and will finally actually able to do for this Eid..

  • Sept. 17th...Tepat 12 mlm I got my b-day wish from Adzrul..woa...no present can challenge this. I got a pre-B-day gift while we were in KL from hubby..coz'I know if its gonna be a working day..than he might not realise it till its'too late.. His comment "Hmm..everyday is your b-day la to me.. anytime beli present..." adoii...Anyway..for buka puasa ..Iftaar..I decided to cook nasi ayam...Earlier in the morning..Zayd gave me a big hug and Hannah too...he ask if he's first..hmm..abang beat you to it..shucks..he said.. Received several wishes from friends known in person and from blogs..he..he..seronok..yg tak seronok nya number tu..but alhamdulilah I made it this far and May Allah blessed my life now and till Hereafter... In the evening we went for terawih at Masjid Abu Bakar Sidique or Mujama Masjid...Seronok sebab usually only Azlan & I yg pergi and weekends baru kids ikut but tonite..Hanah&Zayd ikut juga with Adzrul. While coming out of the masjid a lady stopped me and asked about my tudun bawal..it was somewhat a light pale brown in color..tau je lah tudung bawal ada batu2 and embroidery..it was a mixed shade of myb tanned teddy bear color...This lady as if she can have it..buy it from me..I said I only have this 1 piece but I do have ther colors that i haven't worn..this particular piece I have worn 2x...she said that the color was what she has been looking for to match her new dress... Again before leaving she said..Sister..if you dont have naother same color can I just buy this piece from you? You are my sister in Islam and I dont mind wearing whta you ahve worn..Huish...nak buat camne nie...I kata ok...but I balik basuh dulu and will give it to you...She wants to pay for it but I want to give it to her...dah pakai 2x pun...since dia minat sangat..since kat dalam masjid tak boleh jual beli..tak disukai Rasullullah dlm salah satu hadithnya.. So..since Ramadhan I naklah dapat berkat. I haven't washed it yet..see what happens tomorrow...Another part of the nite..after teraweh ingat nak go for teh tarik at MK's but the two younger kids do not want to go...send them home and just Adzrul followed us. At MK pulak..rezeki murah..Tuan Hj. Hakimey belanja makan mee bandung..walaupun b4 that kami dah makan satay and pisang goreng...aisyhh..tak leh tolak mee bandung nie sebab sedap.....lagipun dah pukul 11pm..might as well treat it as pre-sahur ajelah...mata yg ngantuk pun celik balik..asalnya..mintak biar share ajelah..but bila rasa tak jadi share..tambah lagi ada lah..Affandi & Izah was there too...Nice friendly couple..very close-knit family...we got to eating and talking and joking..sampai abt 12:00 midnite...Have to return home bcos 2 kids at home..Nak bayar bill..tup2 orang lain pulak belanja.. Hai..rezeki nie..mula2 belanja mee bandung..lepas tu belanja bayar the earlier food pulak..Jazakallah to both families...rezeki orang b-day agaknya...

Sunday, September 07, 2008

6th. Ramadhan Spread



After browsing thru' Elisa's blog..I was nagged with the need of wanting to have Paceri Nenas... the thing is that..I still have lots of yesterday left overs. Initially, I did plan to make Nasi Ayam but after reading Elisa's blog..I was tempted to try out making Paceri Nenas..this is my first time ever making it from scratch..and I believe the recipe came out perfect..whatever I lacked base on inexperience but definitely it can be better the next time. Beside Paceri Nenas, we had Ayam Masak Merah, Nasi Tomato, Salad and dates..no dessert since still left overof Pengat Pisang from yesterday. Overhere the recycling rate or types are unbelievable...
Today is my first nite of teraweh and it is so syahdu..no matter I do not understand a word of it but the way it's being performed..May Allah swt grant us the best there is especially in this month and may we stay straight on It's path...


5th Day Ramadhan ~Friday..


Here's what for Iftaar today..sweet and simple..

The dishes comprises of Pengat Pisang and Popiah Goreng as desserts, than we had Telur Goreng Tomato, Ikan Kerisi Bakar with Kuah Kicap Cili, Sambal Sotong, Green salad & Tomato and white rice. Not forgetting kurma for breaking fast..

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

Ramadhan again...

Alhamdulilah..we have completed 2 days of Ramadhan...Waking up for sahoor was easier so far..just because I have 2 alarms right at my ears although not within arms reach...Since Fajar is abt 3:55am..waking up 2:30am for me was a nice pace to prepare some light things for the guys who are goiung to fast. I am still waiting for my turn...

For the first day sahoor..everyone seems to prefer light things like cereals, biscuits and drinking tea, juices and milk. Hannah did not wake up since she was not sure... Iftaar was heavier for the first day since I got the chance to order some stuffs from MK..just to test the delivery...the timing was good and food arrive home in time to set up for iftaar...The food was split into two categories..before Maghrib spread and after Maghrib...so that the guys can go to the masjid for jamaah after breaking their fast. what was available? Mee Hoon goreng..murtabak daging.. popiah basah all ordered from MK. Some dates and Sunquick for breaking the fast. Next for heavier stuffs..I have cooked ayam kicap, sayur lemak Kelante..and tapaw Ikan masak asam and ikan bakar..he..he..MK again.. Zayd loves the ikan masak asam...Anyway....everyone had choices... they were never those who will need many dishes to satisfy them..usually if there's more than 3 dishes...one will get untouched..so this is what happen. Just to quote Azlan saying...campur2 different kuah will make it taste odd..fine by me dear..masak satu all in one aje and than salad..

For 2nd day sahur...I guess everyone wants light stuff again..taknak sebu perut since after fajar solat..sleep for 2 hours b4 waking up for work and school. Well..today was no different except for the fact I did not fall asleep fast enough before waking up again...I was in a dream state that the kids were not up yet for school..opening my eyes I saw it was 5 mins to 7am and before the bus come. I ws calling out their names but nobody answered..so I leap out of bed..scramble for my glasses..rush down the stairs and know what happen next?..I slip and almost fall on my back and hit my head on the stairs..eventhough carpeted its going to be hard enough to hurt..Thought I was save as I grab the railing avoiding that fall on my back..ha..ha..too early...it was slippery..dry feet and missing the steps..I lost my grib on the railings and fall on mu bum..hard..and slip down a few steps..Ouch..sakit nye ..I am now still suffering from being sore....Know where the kids were that I was so frantically calling out for..they are ready for school and almost out the door b4 coming back to see why I scream...At this age and weight falling is what I want to avoid..coz' don't know when its going to be hard to heal...now I am wishing I am more calm and at all cost if I am upstairs..don't run down the stairs...

So Iftaar today was a non-occasion in terms of foods as I am re-heating up yesterday dishes plus whatever fast enough that I don't have to stand for long. Well...this is the time when I wish for bazaar ramadhan...

I hope tomorrow the soreness will be gone....as for now, I have to take orders on what each want for sahoor...the easier the better....

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Ramadhan Kareem

Tonite..Muslims will start with Solat Terawih and from tomorrow we will begin fasting. Subhanallah..berjumpa lagi Ramadhan kali ini....This morning before leaving for school Zayd asked : "Ma..what time is Terawih? Hmm..after isya..probably about 8pm or so...Again he asked : Are we going to the masjid tonite? Insyaállah....Again he asked : Will it be long..I may have homework to do and to sleep early to wake up for sahur? Hmm...I said: Only 8 rakaahs plus 3 witir..it's not going to be very long...Think of the hasanah in Ramadhan for all deeds you are going to do..I said to him....Then he just smile..Yeah..okey..and went of to school...

I need to do some time management for Ramadhan....firstly bcos I want to attend some Quran classes or to read them on my own....Next...to get the kids ready with their homework and also have time for terawih if possible...And most important...Waking up for sahur as fajar is at 3:55am and kids got to wake up for school at 6:00am...this is usually the trying time. Preparing for Iftaar will be nothing grand..it is as normal as can be with addition of dates and myb some sweet delicasies..But..we want to change the habit of break the fast and fill-up the plate first before solat Maghrib...getting the kids to break the fast and do maghrib first and than eat and get ready for isya'and teraweh..this is my aim..I know they will tend to have loads of homework and its gonna be an excuse plus the waking up in the middle of the nite and myb sleep again and wake up for school..all in short intervals..But hey...I believe they won't loose much in terms of school work..We do one good thing and we tend to get more good things coming our way....

As for me...now planning what time to wake up and prepare sahoor and wake the rest of the family pulak...and thinking what..oh..what to cooked..got to expand my menu...

Ayman will be fasting at his hostel and this weekend probably if he's back than we will be together...Adzrul will be with his abah..wonder how the two bujangs will fare...Insyaállah we might be able to spend part of Ramadhan after 7 long years of inability to do so...Zayd has started to complete the whole month since two years back..Hannah has got no problem fasting in ramadhan & infact she started fasting earlier than Zayd...only that this year she will have to miss out some days and make up for it later..and this is the hard part...

May Allah showers us and inscrease for us with His Rewards and He holds us firm on His path...and May we be muslims thru and true..may He forgive us for our sins and accept our deeds and showers His blessings on our parents...amin..

Ramadhan Kareem....

p/s..Happy 51st Birthday Malaysia..May we got to see changes for the future of the next generation...May good intentions comes to form and May Allah swt Bless Our Nation and it's People...

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Hotel Reviews...The ones we stay in this July/Aug in Malaysia


Quality Hotel Shah Alam.

  • Costs were reasonable....we booked the Executive suite for RM270...it consists of 1 spacious bedroom with a king size bed...a separate living and dining room. Breakfast is included....requested an extra folding bed..but this bed is bad not worth the RM60 paid for it..( eventually..it was not charged so okay..). It's large and if you have sleeping bags than it's good coz'it provide only 1 bed. 1 person can sleep on the long sofa provided. Basically the Junior suite will be sufficient for a family of 5 with sleeping bags...and costs RM220/-
  • Only 1 bathroom so we have to take turns.
  • No cooking facilities but tea/coffee making is provided.
  • Breakfast buffet is so-so...
  • Best thing..it's very near to SACC Mall, PKNS and Plaza Alam Sentral...Getting food here was easy from the stalls available in-front of the hotel near Plaza Alam Sentral.
  • Free wire-less coutesy of Wayarless Shah Alam..
  • The hallways a bit shabby and the room decor...

If you don't mind how it looks and mainly for the conveniences of surroundings...shopping, eating, transportation..and the costs for room space provided than this will be good for spending a few days.

The Zon ~Suitestay...Kuala Lumpur.

  • Stay in a 2 bedroom apartment courtesy of Berjaya Vacations we only pay RM200 per nite. Booking costs can vary from RM360 to RM450...I like the rates by KL-Hotel... sometimes by AWB and also by Holiday City...
  • The kids like it here because of KLCC is a walking distance so as to Ampang Park, LRT, Masjid KLCC..Pelita restaurant etc....
  • Laundry is 24hrs done by the staffs there..you just need to buy some tokens..this were handled by Ayman & Adzrul...if I am not mistaken it is RM5 per load?? Convenient bcos u just drop the laundry with tokens and detergent...it will come up dry and folded. make sure you judge the load size so that washing is clear and drying is sufficient. If not leave extra tokens...
  • Food is reasonably good although we only take ala-carte and no breakfast buffet due to the package that we take. Other food mainly bought ta-pau from Kg.Baru for breakfast at Wak Manjor...
  • Kids love the swimming pool and the rooms have 1 king bed in a room and 2 twins in another. bathroom to each room and a living and dining room too..
  • It has a kitchen...so you can cook there since most things are provided..a rice cooker is provided too. Living room & dining room spacious.

Concorde Inn KLIA.

  • We are not really impressed..From the breakfast buffet, the rooms and the staffs. We paid about RM400++ for a 3-bedded room. But the surroundings quite nice..greenery around..it drizzles slightly while we were there.
  • The limo service counter person behave as if..if u dont want transport we dont care also.. Hmm..maybe just my feeling on a wet day...but the driver is very polite...

Concorde Shah Alam.

  • We like this place. We took a 3D&2N package for RM555net with extensions of RM189. We got 2 adult and 2 kids Sunway Lagoon passes for each room. But these pass is only for the water park and free rides..for the other rides you need to upgrade..the cost is steep...We took connecting rooms since everybody has slumped around a bit and need a good rest b4 returning home.
  • Somehow the front desk staffs..were a bit uncertain if you ask too much why..why...why.. but they do try to be helpful. Although I forgo asking for the tickets to Sunway Lagoon for 1 room after they say that it has been pick-up when they did not charge me for the half-day late check-out and extra bed.
  • We love the breakfast buffet with its wide spread of dishes..although after a few days it is the same everyday and you tend to get bored and dunno what to eat...but nice all the same. The pipe in music at the Melting Pot Cafe also is the same tunes probably for the whole week and mainly its the 60's & 70's songs..Duh..should take a survey of the crowds... but after the remodelling the space is nice..got to check out the washrooms..nice...
  • Ala-carte..we love the noodles offerings...Hannah love the mushroom soup...
  • Had dinner at the Japanese restaurant..as usual zayd will ask for the raw fish..sushi..big plate and costly...but this time he get a taste of the fishy taste down his throat and probably off fish for some time..he just say it was too much...CTZ and abah joined us for that dinner...Adzrul got the largest order with Unagi and what nots..hmm..bila dah kerja kena pandai2 budget sendiri...it was a happy nite..
  • Love the room..the bed and beddings is heavenly too coz..I can get a good lie-in due to the mattress...the housekeeping come everyday although at the end of the day..but since we are out most time..it is no bother. Both times we got the view of the mosque which look so serene....
  • Near to Plaza Shah Alam where according to Hannah ok-lah coz there's a Starbuck and Chicken Rice Shop there plus Pelita restaurant...and Giant...
  • Hotel laundry is expensize so we send our bundle to a laundry store nearby abt 5mins drive at Seksyen 9..Millenium Laundry or something behind Celcom. Fast service too...
  • The arrangements were convenient as we easily took a taxi to the airport from the hotel...RM90 for a mini van using Premier Taxi service since hotel only provide cars. Too many bags..4 large luggage..3 handluggage..2 laptops plus a shopping bag..with 1 nyonya bag belonging to Adzrul to be taken back to abah's house.

KL Plaza.

  • Location wise this is the place...but room wise wee bit old..we got a 3 bedroom and there's bed for everyone and it's deducted from our Berjaya free nites. So works fine.
  • Pavilion the new posh shopping complex is just across the road...but I wonder what can we normal people buy there....when most are boutiques. I did not give in to the impulse of wanting a Cole Haan shoe although it looks so comfy..the size were big. But..I did get a Coach limited handbag by courtesy of Mr. Raja Azlan after we feel the LV handbags that we see doesn't seems to strike us as worth the price...maybe we are not the cultured few to know its value...
  • We didn't do any laundry here since the laundry room is always full....
  • The staffs were very welcoming and helpful..this is good.
  • Other than Pavilion, it's next to Starhill and a few steps to Lot 10 with Planet Hollywood at its entrance. I enjoy sitting at the Coffee Bean sambil cuci mata tengok2 minah Arab laku dan gayanya..it makes you wonder...

Beside the place we stay...we went to...

  • The Curve..I was sort of expecting something more from the promo brochures that we see but lastly..it just come flat. Anyway..it was a good time spend there although not that impressive.
  • The Pavilion....expensive boutiques but food court is great and Madam Kwan restaurant is there..love the Nasi Bajuri or something. It also has Tangs and Parkson Grand....
  • KLCC...mainly to Kinokuniya and walking around and eating at Chakri Palace where the steam siakap with lime is out of this world...my taste buds juicing just by mentioning this dish...
  • Subang Parade...where we actually bought the clothings and spend time..not too crowded and familiar with MPH and Chicken Rice Shop our main target.We got some special discounts at Manhattan Fish Market given by the supv...certain items are not in the bill..he said since we eat so much..wow..i was hoping more for our charms that we got the discounts..jazakallah...
  • Mid-Valley...somehow I am not that keen on this place although if we go there..MPH again is the target while I will stop over at Ms. Read.The money changer here gives good exchange rates..SR to RM
  • Amcorp Mall..CTZ took me here the Sunday b4 I left...remember when I use to frequent this place to sell my crafts...stop over at Zahir's Creative Cottage where CTZ will come for art classes. Bought 2 blouses for Hannah...CTZ bought me a tudung...
  • KB Mall..its living and you can get many things here.I did not manage to go to Bazaar Buluh Kubu?? since I went to Pasar lama to get the tudungs....
  • PKNS..where we can get tudungs and clothings...
  • SACC Mall..new place in S.Alam....there's Lovely Lace, Southern Pottery and the Art shp on the 2nd. floor where you can take classes. Just turn right from the escalator. We love the food at the D'Palma cafe...
  • Plaza Alam Sentral...cannot say much since I stop there only a short time with Hannah...
  • SOGO...short stop to go to Insaf for Nasi Beriani...bough cookies there..not bad...
  • Ampang Park..stop over to look at the flower shop there...it is still full of flowers..swags, topiaries but the designs remains the same as 5 years ago...The money changer here gives good exchange rates too.
  • Summit USJ...we went to Adidas outlet there..watch movie and the money changer gives good rates.
  • Sunway Pyramid...huge after the expansion...but..the Jusco store is messy..crowded. We kinda get lost in the whole building...but the directions do help..Ayman ask an Amoi where is the surau located..the Amoi said lagi depan jalan la ada punya...he..he..
  • One Utama...more organized and nicer compared to above place...stopover at Craft Haven..bought some brushes and paint although the salesgirl try to pursuade me not to buy but get some lessons first and just buy what the teacher ask...Haiya..I got no time lo... but I smiling says ok...and she give me some pointers..thanks dear...
  • Munawwarah designs TTDI...the place where I get my tudungs...for friends not really for me..I do have the few that I wear..not actually borong but did bought a few...should have get varied colors coz..I end up with more blacks than necessary... Buying it was in preparation whenever Hannah wanted to start wearing..sudah anak dara so dah kena pakai but she still hesitating..I said no problem lah pakai...She asks me bila mama start pakai..can I wait until same time...hmm...

That's about all the place that was covered in a rush..ha..ha..ha...

Time In Malaysia

Let's see if I remember some of the things that happen while I were in Malaysia...upon arrival..my 3 sis were at the airport with their families..after lots of huggings what nots we proceed to go to Ana's house which is my 2nd sis..Adik&Dilla decided to come along eventhough their house is just near the airport. I forgot about the eptrol pinch since it's price hike.. usually we will transit at Ana's house first b4 going to any hotels that were booked. These hotels were booked way in advance and sometimes I forgot to check the conditions to cancel or amend...as such RM110 melayang due to dates overlap..Anyway..if you serve the net you can look for bargains and will manage to save som $$ just by getting it from different agents or direct to the hotels. In one instance..the rates I get from KL-Hotels for rooms in Concorde Shah Alam is about RM20 cheaper per day..not much right. But if you were there for say 7 days its going to add up...at least can pay for lunch. The breakfast spread at Concorde Shah Alam was great in comparison to the other place that we stay. So a heavy breakfast tend to make you skip lunch and than you take an early dinner..so that's pretty much what we did.....

Actually we were in this quandry....having to hotel hopping during this vacation and last in Malaysia due to the unreadiness of our own homes. I expect to rectify this from next year onwards insyaállah....Our first home was repainted externally and internally last year...so the time stretch due to the rainy season and we cannot even stay there last year...as for this year since the house was void of furniture..we cannot stay there also... so thus the hotels...

Anyway...since the order of what needs to be done was centered around where we stay at the moment..it makes us able to complete quite a few items. I don't really expect to complete all that we wrote done prior to repat...

But the major things that were completed :-
  • Get the MPSA approval for the Subang Alam house renovation.
  • Mid-August b4 Azlan returns, the renovation of the external kitchen started after we agree on the changes and the costs...I just hope that it will turn out good if not great since I am not there to watch the progress..I just go with my gut feeling and also surveillance by Sani that all will be as said...so 30% of costs all paid for. To date the external kitchen basics were completed.
  • Able to get the Cahaya Heights rented out...RM800 per month for 2 years. With options to add 1 year additional. The tenant seems nice and although he requested a few items to be done..he is willing to fork out the money first and deduct from rental. Hmm..we again go with our gut feeling and thanks to Zarina & Gorden who help us to rent out the place...
  • We sell our Toyota Unser and get a Toyota Vios for Adzrul...alhamdulilah manage to get a good trade in value for it. Although we went round surveying how much resale value around Puchong, PJ and S.Alam finally Toyota outlet at Subang gives us the best price..so we decided to get the Vios..Ha..ha..although with a car..Adzrul is just now taking his driving license course..to date he has passed the computer test and attended the practical workshop...so probably next week he should be getting his L and start on the road test. We hope he can master this skill since he will be on his own..at least to go to LRT or KTM station. But he needs to know which place to avoid when driving alone...
  • Sign up MRTA with Alfa...although with some medical issues on Azlan's side.
  • Sign up Hannah's policy with K.Ita.
  • Pre-sign with CTZ...still need to get her the money...
  • Settle our queries with Edarman..although still upset about the losses but still..we believe its not meant to be although we know the decision to take but it was not taken on time..It's not actually up to us...
  • Settle with the house grill contractor...
  • Meet up with my ex-staffs for Hi-Tea at Sheraton..gonna put up the photos soon. And the Wed b4 leaving again for makan-makan at Mintan's...dpt handbag Pierre Cardine lagi..too much these guys but thanks so much...
  • Lunch also the first week at Sani's house..O'La..La..ada sup lala yg sedap and fruits etc...
  • Had fun time in Sunway lagoon on Thurs 7/8/08...had dinner at a malay restaurant in Sunway Pyramid and then stay to watch a drum performance by some school students.
  • Had various wonderful times with CT during the last leg of our stay..from The Curve/Ikea to Munawwarah and eating Laksam..
  • Attended a ceramah by YB Zulkifli Nordin and also a visit to Dtk Hassan Ali office in SUK..where we met Dtk. Ismail Kamus too...who by the way has spend some time looking over our Subang Alam house if you know what it means....

Some disappointment....well..its my unhappiness now but..it happens that way may not be really up to me...may we have more time for family visits next year..and some compromises....we need to compromise and not just insist...anyway..I should have tried harder..but things are no longer the same..when hearts are harden its not easy to mend...there's too much silence and waiting who gonna start first...I may regret of not doing what I should have done but than again..things are not that simple...it's push way too long to do something about it...but still I will keep on doing the things that I can do although non-communicado...

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Back in Dhahran....

Back again in Dhahran since 19/8/08....How 6 weeks flew by so fast....Truth be known I do miss this home away from home of mine...hmm...hmm...maybe because I have all the familiarities with me here now....Anyway..I haven't really got to doing much of anything yet coz' I seem to strain my back few days after coming back...so just take it slow...now it seems better and still I am in slow mode...

Especially yesterday was considered as not to do much of anything day bçoz...we are waiting for the results of Permatang Pauh by-election...we know the results now..Subhanallah..May DSAI gets to do what he needs to do for the betterment of Malaysians....insyaállah...and..and...it seems that this Thurs we will have sort of a kenduri menyambut Ramadhan and kejayaan..since Ramadhan will be here soon...

I need to get myself sorted out on the things that needs to be done too...not just the laundry and putting in things in the drawers and closets but totally in 5 years here we have dump up many many things..so its time for Red Tag days and to sort out and donate especially the clothes..Hannah has got hers neatly pile up at the bottom of her cabinet..the boys still a long way to go and so is mom and dad...Would like to apply the rule of : If you put in 5 new clothes You must take out 5 old clothes if not things are gonna jammed up....

What I have done since the last week home...


  • Laundry...tonnes of laundry....Washing at home and send out for ironing.

  • Clear up some of the kitchen cabinets in order to put in more stuffs...

  • Have unpack the clothes from Malaysia thus the laundry and the hangers...

  • Clean the refrigerator and stoves...

That's pretty much it....In total we brought back 220kg of stuffs spread out with sending via ABDA at RM26kg/bag for 78kg....mainly food items..the nasi impit and Milo sure do stack up the kg's....need to ponder if its gonna be a sensible thing to do in future..overhere..Milo for 600gm cost SR22++ in Msia 2kg cost abt RM21 if not mistaken...since Azlan returns a week earlier he carries with him abt 33kg and 7kg was excess to be paid...when I return with my 3 kids I had 106kg...and 6kg excess to be paid...ngam ngam duit Aramco bagi for excess baggage..ingat nak jimat boleh lah dok perbeli benda2 lain...This baggage thing will now be a main consideration before next repat....Will tell more on the stuffs that were brought back among the five of us...


Got to leave Adzrul behind.....this is a first..usually we will be waving him off...now he is waving us off....Well...you got to do what you got to do...Insyaállah he will be joining us here for part of Ramadhan and Eid....How long not sure..it depends when he will be called for his induction prior to housemanship....Still..he got to go and get his driving license soonest possible...kereta ada tapi ada driver but takde license lagi...


Will update more soon....


Saturday, July 05, 2008

Summer 2008 Repat

Tentatively these places will be our stop-overs...

  • 7/7 ~arrive in KLIA and proceed to Ana's.
  • 8/7 ~Will be checking in at Quality Hotel Shah Alam.
  • 14/7 ~will fly to Kelantan on Airasia
  • 18/7 ~spend the nite at Concorde Inn
  • 19/7 ~Concorde Shah Alam
  • 31/7 ~ the Zon KL
  • 7/8 ~KL Plaza
  • 11/8 ~A nite at KLIA as Azlan is flying back to Saudi.
  • 12/8 ~ 17/8 TBD either Subang or Shah Alam.
  • 17/8 - 19/8 ~PanPac KLIA and fly back to Saudi...

Am utilizing all available vouchers for this trip to stay here there and evrywhere since the house is not yet ready...

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Big..Big..Smile..Again More Good News...

Today..he got the much awaited..hope for news...Not by being spoken to..but rather by having the letter appears on his screen...He said..Tak kisah lah orang tu tak beritau pun..janji dah dapat figure apa yang dapat....Truth be known it was a massive upheaval of things just waiting for the news..Upheavel to my ears that is....He's happy than I am happy...May all will be berkat so that it sticks and may we be able to do good stuffs with it..Oh..oh..What was the news? Well..this time of year of course..increment & upgrading...He got an upgrading and known increment because of the upgrading and a little more to come base on the years work performance.. Yeah..yeah..I am the lucky one too...For those who knows..lepas lah bayar monthly rumah Subang Alam..that's how much....he..he..he...

Another good news.....application for permission to renovate the new house is obtained... we thought it is going to take few months...sometimes I feel..En. S*** went thru more than necessary to get things done for me...so again I am the lucky one..He states several options of what to do....I just say..whatever you feel we should do.. we shall do it...sebab dia juga nanti yang akan monitor benda2 ni..if he's willing. He also has align several agendas for us..which we shall gladly abide...bukan senang...so the first week home is taken..tak dapat dah nak buat benda lain...So first will be menziarah a certain figure who is now in SUK..and next will be the ceramah by a certain MP also...segan actually but oklah orang dah ajak..kita pun ikut jelah since En.S*** kata we are available...

Too many good news scary pulak..but syukur nya kami memang tak tau nak kata..the only thing to do is to be the best possible servant to HIM till we are called back...

Today juga..I dok try steam room yg baru at the ladies new fitness centre in Aramco...with Ana & Azizah...bila agaknya nak gi naik machines yg banyak tu..maybe lepas puasa..ha..ha...Should make it regular..at least the steam or sauna thing..kot-kot boleh kecutkan sikit mana yg patut..

Again today..I am so happy..so very happy....

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

Subhanallah..My Blessings....

Yep..I am counting my blessings today.....To start with....

  • Adzrul had his last paper today....yippee..mama tumpang gembira anakanda...Well..I believe the 6 years they went thru is proof enough that all is possible once you survive Kursk..actually..6 years ago my honest opinion was that it was not bad at all..but probably our young ones were so used to many enhancements in life and to get to basics was torture...Anyway..all's well that ends well...Congratulations ya..duktur..!! Praise be to Allah swt. One of my ex-collegue sms me saying his congrats to the mom that is..and how he remembers the time before sending my anakanda in trying to get the finances ship-shape. Actually we plan to send him in Feb'03 but the agent says why not Sept. '02..but at that time the money was no where near enough so we really got to stretch our imagination in actual fact just to come up with it..and this was what he was referring too..But bless be to Allah swt for good friends who offered without any conditions...and the good feelings we had for having to turn them down bcos we know who were our friends...An another thing was..suddenly I had huge orders of flowers from my staffs that I cant keep up with but suddenly they overcome their shyness to buy some from me..they have always come to check me out at the pasar tani but..they always think..heh...manager pun jual bunga..? Thanks to Illa for being the go between...Now..after 6 years he made it..May he remembers all the people that put in some for him....in fact those he doesnt know who give him the duit poket...no matter how small or how big....Jazakallah Khairan....
  • Cik Hannah K..reaches her time on June 18th. she sure was cool about it....
  • I prayed for the tambahkan rezeki....as always....more for the C**** thingy.... alhamdulillah..I got free lunch and dinner for the whole family on Monday, went out to dinner last nite with some tapau things and the whole thing was paid by a friend..and this morning....got some kuehs pau and currypuffs for breakfast and to take home to courtesy of Ana...what more can I want..and tonite..the men have usrah and again fed for dinner.... actually...I cooked ayam merah for lunch too..so our doas are always answered if we look hard enough..it may not come in the way we ask for it but Allah swt knows best...I am happy...soo happy....
  • I got most of my bookings for the summer trip back....so now got to packed up and make the list of things and to do...and 7/7/08..adios for a short while to this land of the anbiya..
  • I got my new abaya today..simple with some lace at the sleeves only..hmm..the sleeves need some mending but Mafi Mushkila....

May Allah swt Always Showers HIS Blessings upon us and Keep Us on the Straight Path....

May DSAI..keep firm and Come Out of this Latest Test....

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Summer In Malaysia 2008

Counting 7 more days till we fly back to Malaysia....We bought the tickets way back in Jan '08 to get a cheaper price and flexible dates. Sometime in Mar'08 words got around that the ticket price will be lower in April '08 so on...Alamak we all dah bayar..sign sealed delivered dah tickets back to Msia. But..we just go on the comparison to previous years in terms of costs and be happy with it..This year with request from Cik Hannah Kamilah we booked seats on Emirates...with stopovers in Dubai for about 4hrs each route..I do not want to stay overnite in Dubai either way bços of the luggages...Usually on the route to M'sia we will bring bags in bags...but coming back to Saudi all bags will be utilized..but this year..I am planning to not have much excess baggage coz..sayang the money bayar...Well..5 adults tickets are about SR13800...plus hotels in Msia lagi...Our house is still not ready since most furnitures are here in Saudi...so for a few times tidur on lembek..sudah sakit lah belakang....Longterm plan will be to get the house in Subang Alam ready for holiday occupancy..but at the moment the costs for renovation has rise so much..still not sure what will be our ultimate plans...budget..budget..budget...please dont run away...

To tumpang the siblings will not be an option except for a few days and the locations...but still again will be on the lembek..which at this age is no longer good for us..nanti balik Saudi badan jadi senget...talking about 5 weeks period nie...

To spend more than few days at what use to be called rumah induk since after losing my mom..was a bit akward since dah ada orang baru very very near my age as new residence...so it will be again a stop and go version plus the issues semasa that came up recently...entah lah... To the other side on hubby's place..the dual rumah induk has existed more than 10 years ago...so each visit will be a duel and touchy till this day... Well..kesian lah the anak-anak so to speak... anak-anak yang merantau macam kami nie...There's lot of lessons to learn from all this and may Allah swt gives us guidance....

So..in the end...my plans for the family was after considering the Stop 'n Go options will be to spend time around Shah Alam, Subang and KL...the kids still will be getting their holidays fun and spree...plus waiting for the abang doktor to balik on 25/7 insyaállah...adik2 still couldn't come up with what will be best to address him formally.......Dr. Nik.....Dr. Adzrul.....Dr. Ariff...... Dr. Nik Ariff...Hannah kata tak glamor nye..he..he...one thing for sure..alhamdulilah with one more finals to go..he will get his 6 years waiting result..we are very proud of you anakanda...

OK...maybe in a few days..I will be able to confirm all our stations in the 5 weeks we are in Malaysia....

Saturday, June 07, 2008

It Works....It Hurts Too...

A few posting ago..I put up the ones about the doa's about studying...I did intensely memorize and read it than it tapers down to read it once i a while..though all the time the gist of it stuck in my mind...even to the point that I want to quell it while in the toilet..than have to read another doa....for the toilet thing....

Hmm..tomorrow Sunday I will have my tafseer class which requires me to know the english meaning of each word and recite in class..we are up to ayah 123~129 of Al-Baqarah...so being last-minute me... only last nite I start the lesson...so intensively today I read it over and over again..what push me to repeatative doing it...it seems an easier flow this time..I use to forget the earlier sentence when I proceed to the next ones...but today more verses/word sticks in my mind....so I am just feeling the very happy laa....

Anyway..I am taking a rest now and will go out for dinner at Applebees after Maghrib coz' Zayd craves a mean steak...he just got a 5% raise on his average for Social Studies and the hard work seems to pay off..come to think of it everyone been behaving nicely...Applebees is going to set us back say about SR300++

Except...except...ya..the Cinderella story..I minus out about SR40++ from my handphone credits with flying messages...ouch...painful yet no resolve...fening..fening..kepala..I am borderlining myb siTanggang..I dont know..I said only Allah swt knows..and I leave it to Him...When what you say seems to sound a different way when it was said back to you...ouch..double..ouch..ouch... i am at the end of my nerves...finally..my decision..you dont accept one but have to accept all..if you reject one than yo have to reject all...So.if you can't sit and resolve the matter than so be it..I do not want to be the one to be constantly being over the haggling..this I love but that I love too.. That's why i am saying I am borderlining siTanggang...but May Allah swt accepts my intentions. I worry yes.. extremely so... coz' your sins with Allah you can ask for His forgiveness..but the sins among human will tie you down and hold you back...

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

What's Been Happening To Me...

Yesterday
  • Broke a glass cover..it drops to the floor from the counter top..broke into several big sharp pieces and many many small ones..one piece gets on my heel and pierce it..Oo..la..la..blood oozed out..as I was hopping around looking for a bandaid..blood drops along..wah..got to clean up the mess pulak..dah lah darah...pain?..Not so much...found a square bandaid large enough ffor the heel..so case one end...clean up the glass splinters...it must have not been a corelle or pyrex as it splinters sharp...
  • Fried up some keropok and eat them with Lingam chilli sauce (you can get the sauce in Bahrain..I dont know how to get to the store ~Rachanee coz' I always kirim2 from friends..). What happen was..this morning my "langit-langit"is sore..must have been the chilli that I scooped with the keropok...
  • My coughing gets worse..and now I heave and got a headache plus running to the toilet whenever I start coughing..it is infrequent but bad when it happens...myb got to take that kicap with lime/lemon juice and madu thing...**I always get confused in buying cough medication..between the dry cough type..expectorant or suppressant...end up looking for one that covers all...
  • There's a strange burning smell from the air-cond...or is it just my smelling functions haywire..
  • Make nasi lemak...wow..the sambal turns out to be spicy but sweet but again..spicy..only Zayd seems to have no problem with it..Infact..this morning he said he wants the sambal again for lunch...will match it with ayam kicap and sayur lemak insyaallah...
  • My book from Nora is on the way......this new passionn for decorative painting..spend many $$ to get ready all stuffs..the result although not as per what I want..it turns out comot but pretty sweet looking from far lah....
  • Got the confirmation for Suitestay for 7 days in August...got to plan out the last 7 days too...
  • Massive issue at the home front....got to do with a Cinderella thing...ask me to decide pulak...kena decide sendiri lah...shucks...
  • Attended the year end Grade 6/7 concert..Zayd in band playing thrombone and Hannah playing Frenchorn and sing in the choir...Zayd got to play with his honor band for one song and with the rest 2 songs...Hannah keep asking me can we say "hallelujah"in the song..?? Still thinking abt the right answer....I said not sure..just move your lips...will find out...
  • Got a Dior watch for me..courtesy of Azlan's bonus and anniversary gift vouchers..though he got to come up with extra to pay..
  • My ustazah says...enjoy having things if you can afford them...but dont go for expensive stuffs...alamak....understood her meaning but my wants...shucks 3x...must read the surah for marketplace more....

Well thats about all.....been misty lately....with adz graduating soon and starting a job..with myself with all the things I want to do and not yet done etc..etc...but I cherished all that Allah swt has bestowed on me and may many to come...

Sunday, June 01, 2008

The New Tabib's To Be...

Insyaállah..soon enough these young people will serve their tenure and may they become what they aim to be and find happiness in between. Couldn't believe it was just 6 years ago...I was on the 10 hour bus trip with them from Moscow to Kursk and with some tears etc..we left them there to gain the education they chose. I remember the dean or somebody says in his welcoming speech...."Treat this place as a rich black soil where many things can grow....Gain the knowledge from here and spread them when you go back to work.."....I will dig some photos out to show how they were 6 years back....

Mumtaz ya..duktur...


Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Dua Belajar....

Below compilation was merely done for my own anakanda's who are in a way or another taking exams. Some are confident and they do well...some are not so confident and yet they do well..some are confident but than not do well and yet some are not confident and not do well. Bear in mind its not due to lack of preparation but sometimes isues gets in like..confusion..panic and than more confusion..negative thinking...not having enough confidence..well..1001 reasons actually...

But one thing that I do say to them...Just do the best that you can do..prepare and study the best & the most that you can..basically to give it your all...and than Doa..doa..doa..insyaállah. But I do tell them..don't you put effort 20% but hoping for a 100% return...Sometimes we need to learn from mistakes and go further..provided we know why the mistakes happen..in this case the study...Utilize all proven techniques..learn to know own limits and strength and weaknesses and use the powers given to get what you want. The rest is Allah swt job....

As help the following where provided...


1. Dua While Studying Something Difficult

http://www.dua4me.com/TraditionalDuas/Video_Dua_for_studying_and_exams-1

اللَّهُمَّ لاََ سَهْلَ إلَّا مَا جَعَلْتَهُ سَهْلاً, وَ أَنْتَ تَجْعَلُ اَلْحَزْنَ إِذَا شِئْتَ سَهْلاً
Allahumma la sahla illa ma ja'altahu sahla, wa 'anta taj-alu al hazna idha shi'ta sahla
O Allah! There is nothing easy except what You make easy, and You make the difficult easy if it be Your Will

Review your notes regularly even if for short intervals. Don't eat too much food. Don't do all nighters, study in chunks (psychologically better for you), memorize everything the teacher wants you to answer and re-gurgitate it back out for exams

حَسْبِيَ اللَّهُ وَنِعْمَ الْوَ كِيلُ
Hasbiyallahu wa ni’mal wakeel
Allah is my availer and protector and the best of aids.


رَبِّا اِِنِّى مَغْلُوبٌ فَانتَصِّرْ
Rabbi inni maghlubun fantass seer
O’ Allah! I am overpowered, so help me..

رَبِّزِدْنِي عِلْمً وَرْزُقْنِي فَهْمًا
Rabbi zidni ílman war zuqni fahman
O Allah! Advance me in knowledge and true understanding


2. Dua after studying:

اللَّهُمَّ اِنِّي أَسْتَو دِعُكَ مَا قَرَأتُ وَمَا حَفَظْتُ, فَرُدُّهُ عَلَّيَ عِندَ حَاجَتِي إِلَيهِ, اِنَّكَ عَلَ مَا تَشَاءُ قَدِير وَأَنتَ حَسْبِيَا وَنَعْمَ لْوَكِيل
Allahumma inni astaodeeuka ma qara'tu wama hafaz-tu. Farudduhu 'allaya inda hajati elahi. Innaka 'ala ma-tasha'-u qadeer wa anta hasbeeya wa na'mal wakeel"

"Oh Allah! I entrust you with what I have read and I have studied. Oh Allah! Bring it back to me when I am in need of it. Oh Allah! You do whatever you wish, you are my availer and protector and the best of aid."

3. For asking Allah swt benefit to what you do...

اَللَّهُمَّ إِنِّي أَسْأَ لُكَ عِلْمًا نَافِعًا ,وَرِزْقًا طَيَّبًا, وَعَمَلاً مُتَقَبَّلاً
Allahumma inni as'aluka 'Ilman naafi'an, wa rizqan tayyiban, wa 'amalan mutaqabbalan

O Allah! I ask You for knowledge that is of benefit, a good provision and deeds that will be accepted.[Ibn Majah and others]

4. For when you feel lazy..depressed..sad..**Things not going right for you with anything...

اللَّهُمَّ إنِّي أَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنَ الْهَمِّ وَ الْحَزَنِ ، وَ الْعَجْزِ وَ الْكَسَلِ ،
وَ الْبُخْلِ وَ الْجُبْنِ ، وَ ضَلَعِ الدِّيْنِ وَ غَلَبَةِ الرِّجَالِ


Allahumma Inni A''udzubika Minal hammi wal Hazan, Wal Ájzi wal kasal, Wal Bukhli wal Jubn wa dho'laid daini wa gholaba tirrijal..

O Allah! I seek refuge in You from grief and sadness, from weakness and from laziness, from miserliness and from cowardice, from being overcome by debt and from being overpowered by men (other people)[Sahih al-Bukhari 7:158]

1. Study Methods ---> http://www.studygs.net/

2. Making constant Ibada, reading the Quran, and praying consistently, not only benefit you in every aspect of life (both here and in the next).. but it has been proven that people who memorize Quran have the ability to be succesfull in all feilds of worldly knowledge. One surah that I find beautiful, easy to memorize, and according to a hadith (which I shall e-mail you).. will cover the believer in the grave against punishment till judgment day is Surah Mulk. Other than that any surah, and actually the whole Quran should be read with deep content.

3. **SOME THINGS I DO BEFORE STUDYING OR EXAM**

Study Tips:
1)Do the prayers at their correct times.
2)Pray a 2 rakat nafl prior to exam
3)Say بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ (In the name of Allah, the Most Merciful, the Most Kind) - before commencing the exam - indeed before anything that you do.
4)Recite some du'as (like the ones listed above), and keep in constant dhikrullah (i.e. the daily dhikrs when waking, dressing, eating, sleeping, etc)
5)Come home and pray 2 rakat nafl after the exam for shukr (offer thanks to Allah) for granting you the strength and persistence and ability to complete the exam and accomplish goals inshaAllah
6)Increase in your reading and listening of the Qur'an and performing more ibadah (worship) (i.e. nafilah (voluntary) prayers and deeds).
Keep away from bad actions and deeds - Follow up a bad deed with a good deed, to cancel it out. https://www.law.ucla.edu/mlsa/islam/duas...
Also something which is highly found beneficial is honey, eating a teaspoon can help with memory. Herbs are good natural ways of getting antioxidence. So green tea and Chamomile are the best (I drink those)... And making eating healthy a lifestyle.. with fruits and vegetables.. are good sources. Some brain foods (Almonds, Fish, Eggs and Apples)

Kenduri Arwah....

This is an interesting entry I got from UKS....It gets me thinking of many practises that we do..most by following and not knowing why..basically Islam by tradition. Alhamdulilah..the chance we get to learn...we should explore the things we know and follow and the reasons behind them...Below is an example of the instances that we do things that may be conflicting....conflicts due to community issues ( eh..apa pula orang kata?) or intention is pure but it may not follow rulings. wallahualam...Whatever is the conflicts inside us are part of our jihad too...


In ummiku-sayang@ yahoogroups. com, wanfk wrote:>>

KUALA LUMPUR, 25 Jan (Hrkh) -"Perlu ke saya sediakan makanan danbuat kenduri arwah kepada orang kampung sedangkan keluarga saya tengahsedih sangat sebab baru sahaja kehilangan ayah tersayang?" tanyaseorang remaja kepada saya yang baru kehilangan ayahnya yang tercintakerana sakit kronik.

-->> Terkedu dan pernah juga terfikir dalam benak hati, namun keranakenaifan saya di bidang agama saya diamkan sahaja sehinggalah munculkembali soalan yang terbit daripada anak muda belasan tahun ini yangdatang daripada keluarga yang susah.
> Lantaran itu, walaupun sedikit kesibukan dengan tugasan, sayameluangkan masa mencari jawapan yang mungkin atau mengundang pelbagaipandangan dan polemik serta emosi kurang senang banyak pihak.
> Namun atas landasan mencari ilmu termasuk mahu berkongsi bersama,saya kutip beberapa pendapat yang boleh dijadikan panduan kepada semuakhususnya kepada anak muda yang bertanya itu sehingga saya membiarkandia termanggu tanpa sebarang jawapan sebelum ini.(segala kesilapan dankelemahan mohon tunjuk dan maafkan) > Amalan membebankan keluarga si mati > Dalam laman blog dikenali sebagai Institut Al-Imam Syafie (Intis)seorang Pensyarah Jabatan Tilawah al-Quran Pusat Bahasa UniversitiIslam Antarabangsa Malaysia (UIAM) Abdullah Bukhari Abdul Rahimmenulis amalan kenduri arwah ini sudah pasti menyusahkan keluarga simati yang masih lagi bersedih dengan kehilangan orang tersayang. > Katanya Rasulullah s.a.w ketika mendengar berita kematian Jaafaribn Abi Talib, baginda bersabda: "Persiapkan makanan untuk keluargaJa’far, kerana sesungguhnya mereka telah didatangi dengan apa yangmenyibukkan mereka (kesusahan) â€" Hadith riwayat al-Tirmidhi & AbuDawud.
> Keluarga si mati yang baru ditimpa musibah(al-Baqarah: 155-157)perlu disokong dan dibantu. > Amalan di sesetengah tempat ini adalah salah, kerana katanyakesedihan keluarga si mati akan ditambah lagi dengan kesedihan lainseperti bebanan kewangan kerana perlu membayar upah orang membacaal-Quran, sembahyang jenazah dan kenduri arwah.
> "Budaya mengadakan kenduri arwah bersempena kematian pada malampertama, malam Jumaat, malam ketujuh, malam ke-40 dan malam ke-100juga tidak mempunyai asas sama sekali dalam Islam," katanya yangdipetik dari laman web tersebut
> Amalan itu membawa kepada pembaziran jika membabitkan penggunaanharta si mati tanpa jalan yang betul dan membabitkan penganiayaanharta anak yatim malah Majlis Fatwa Mesir pada 1947 memutuskan bahawaamalan berkenaan perlu dihentikan.
> Ulama mazhab Syafie melarang kenduri arwah > Rujukan katanya boleh dibuat terhadap Kenyataan bekas Mufti MesirSyeikh Hasanain Makhluf di dalam akhbar al-Ahram bertarikh 27 Julai1947 dan Fatwa ini kemudian disahkan oleh Majlis Fatwa Mesir dandikeluarkan dengan rasminya pada 14 Ogos 1947, bilangan 377.
> Katanya lagi Ulama mazhab Syafie melarang budaya ini sebagaimanadipetik daripada buku Feqah Mazhab Syafie, al-Fiqh al-Manhaji.
> Antara petikan kitab tersebut yang berbunyi:"Daripada bidaah apadibuat keluarga si mati ialah dengan mengumpulkan orang ramai kepadamakanan dengan upacara dinamakan berlalunya 40 hari dan seumpamanya. "
> "Sekiranya perbelanjaan makanan itu daripada harta peninggalan (simati) dan di kalangan waris ada yang belum baligh, maka itu adalahdari perkara lebih haram.
> "Ini kerana ia memakan harta benda anak yatim dan melenyapkannyabukan untuk kepentingan anak yatim itu. Terbabit juga dalam melakukanperbuatan haram ini setiap yang memanggil dan memakannya." (rujukanjil 1/ ms 263, Damsyik: Dar al-Qalam).

> Dalam pada itu pada Jun 2005 blog tersebut turut memetik ruanganTazkirah di bawah tajuk 'Amalan Jahiliyyah Disangka Ajaran Agama' olehTuan Guru Dato' Nik Abdul Aziz Nik Mat yang merujuk kepada pengarangkitab at-Tazkirah iaitu Al-Qurtubi berhubung isu kenduri arwah.
> "Dengan jelas mengatakan bahawa diantara amalan jahiliyyah ialahmengadakan suatu himpunan beramai-ramai diperkuburan, di masjid ataudi rumah dengan berzikir dan juga lain-lain bacaan, serta mengadakanjamuan makan minum dengan tujuan untuk orang mati, disebut orangsebagai kenduri Arwah.
> "Dengan jelas perbuatan itu tiada Nas yang menjadi rujukannya dantiada petunjuk sunnah yang menjadi ikutan, " kata Nik Aziz. > Kenyataan pahit dan mengejutkan (bold)
> Kenyataan ini kata Nik Aziz mungkin agak keras dan pahit sertaboleh jadi suatu penjelasan yang mengejutkan terutama terhadap merekayang mengamalkan perkara tersebut secara ikut-ikutan dan membuta tulitanpa mengkaji dari sudut ilmiyah.
> "Tetapi inilah hakikat Islam yang mesti diakui oleh penganutnyayang sedia kembali kepada al-Quran dan Sunnah," katanya
> "Tidak dapat dinafikan bahawa amalan tersebut telah berakar umbidi dalam masyarakat melayu, sehingga sebahagian dari mereka menganggapbahawa amalan tersebut adalah merupakan amalan agama yang mestidilakukan setiap kali berlaku kematian," katanya lagi

> Kata Nik Aziz lagi sungguhpun Nabi terlalu sayang terhadap umatnyaterutama terhadap para sahabatnya yang sentiasa membantu Nabi di dalamsuasana damai dan perang namun Nabi tidak pernah melakukan majliszikir atau tahlil untuk sahabat-sahabatnya r.a yang mati.
> "Orang yang paling sayang terhadap Nabi s.a.w. adalah parasahabatnya yang sentiasa berada di sisi Nabi siang dan malam, namunpernahkah terdapat para sahabat berhimpun dan berzikir dan bertahliluntuk Nabi s.a.w.?" katanya membangkitkan persoalan. Soalnya lagi jikaperkara itu tidak dilakukan oleh Nabi dan juga para sahabat maka darimanakah punca amalan itu diambil.
> "Apa yang paling mendukacitakan, mereka menganggap amalan tersebutsebahagian dari amalan Islam, padahal Rasulullah sa.w. tidak pernahmenunjukkan contoh seperti itu dalam sunnahnya," katanya.
> Bagi umat Islam marilah berlapang dada dalam menghadpi persoalanagama dengan menghayati petikan ayat daripada surah An-Nisaa' 4:59:"Hai orang-orang yang beriman, taatilah Allah dan taatilah RasulNyadan ulil amri di antara kamu. Kemudian jika kamu berlainan pendapattentang sesuatu, maka kembalikanlah ia kepada Allah (Al Qur'an) danRasul (sunnahnya), jika kamu benar-benar beriman kepada Allah dan harikemudian. Yang demikian itu lebih utama (bagimu) dan lebih baikakibatnya." -Az> >

Monday, May 19, 2008

Catch...

This issue keep circling in my mind. Basically I don't know much for what to say about it coz' I dont even know where to begin...One thing I know..it is faced by many women and their initiatives were either to ask about it and non-commital answers given or more ridiculously being given a look like..hey..its my money so I know how to take care of it...But money here is hardly the issue....the issue will be how to go on after the inevitable happens. Many women once face with these issues will just shrug it off...malas nak tanya lagi..bising telinga...and just go on with life...But personally..at the very minimum we need to know how it is coz'if we are left back we know where to even begin....I am talking about death and specifically if the husbnad were to leave first and we are with still school going kids...

Things that mystify some but clear to the very few are :-

  • EPF....nama pewaris. What actually does the pewaris can do? We need to find out about this..I am not sure myself...There's 3 spaces for names of pewaris. Know who they are and especially if you are one of them...or worst case NOT one of the names..If you are in this case then there will be many things that we need to find out further..especially if the wife was a homemaker from beginning...Many cases happens that the pewaris names were that of parents or siblings....alasan nya..Ala..lupa nak update...Tahulah nanti adik/abang I nak take care of you&kids..taulah parents I nak take care juga...Kang I letak nama you(wife) jadi janda kaya you pulak...kalau you kahwin lain..untunglah suami baru..ekekek.. Soo..jealous juga rupanya sampai gitu sekali nak jaga..my interpretation lah...Tak nak nanti duit yg dapat kot banyak.. menyenangkan orang baru..itupun jika benar bagai disangka.. Tak teringat ke..siapa yang akan lebih prihatin hal kebajikan anak2...Siapa yang akan lebih menyusahkan dirinya demi anak2... Pernah dan banyak kali berlaku...suami mati dan duit EPF yg agak lumayan diletak pewaris pada abang...dan parents..nama isteri dan anak takde... Maka apa yang jadi..isteri satu sen tak dapat so anak2 tak dapat juga..pewaris lebih berkata dah letak nama dia maka untuk dia lah..if nak bagi wife dah lama tukar nama... Tak ke nama pewaris tu sebagai pemegang amanah utk menjaga kebajikan org yg ditinggalkan lebih2 lagi anak2...Bagi harta anak yatim tu bukannya untuk dibolot... By even thinking that you can't trust your wife after you die and all your hard earned money will go to someone else if she remarries... so tinggalkan pada orang lain to take care..this to me is such a humiliation to the wife after so long being together with her thru thick or thin.. unless lah wife ni bukan that wifely type...

  • I heard this being said too....." I tak taulah kat mana and berapa duit simpanan dia" Bila tanya dia marah marah..so malas lah nak tanya..asal semua cukup dah..Rumah pun belum ada lagi bila balik2 cuti kn tumpang rumah in-laws dulu or duduk hotel ke.... Semasa hidup maybe things will be okay...but once he is gone where are we going to get hold of all this information. When we dont know even the bank and account number...let alone how much....

Since I am still pondering on these issues and contemplating each of them to improve on my own situation will definitely needs lots of discussion. My priviliges in all this are being open to each other and decided together on most of it but we still have many unsettled issues that need clarifying so that things are more or less settled with the what if both of us gone together....

It's Blowing Sand Out There...

Today seems slightly gloomy coz' the sand is in the wind....but at the same time many many things is trying to overcome me..and part of me is still in pause mode..still lazing around. Maleh..nak buat apa bende...

Tentatively...it will be 7 weeks till when we will be back in Malaysia for the ritual repat..this year the air tickets we bought it way back end January..some people call it crazy but its just precaution against rising prices and conflicting schedules. But then again..no matter how sure you are of certain things..it ends up being a mess no doubt. Why?? This time a few factors disturb our intial plans...the hubby got a new boss recently and he panics looking at the leave schedule for summer...well..the oil has got to be pumped out no matter who goes on leave..if not probably we dont enjoy the SR0.45 per liter gas. Anyway..we couldnt change the departure date due to the increase in prices and only change Azlan's return date a week earlier. Now I am not having the confidence of staying back another week in Malaysia or probably extended further due to Adzrul might not get certain things settle bcos he will also return late to Malaysia. He may only just meet Azlan for about 12 days....

Next..after the dates are more or less settle. The next decision will be where to stay. Since the house is not ready yet..we cant stay there. We need to get people to come and do something. Lately the help was ever so busy so we got to wait once he got a breather...But he has make the decision much easier for short-listing the contractors and than it is just money..money...ouchh...

I have arranged for us to be in Shah Alam for a week and than fly back to Kelantan for a few days..next return to KL for 2 weeks somewhere and the plan stuck there...still ahve another 2 weeks to plan for. In between will run to Seremban...maybe Bukit Merah and if no choice to Sunway Lagoon as a peace offereing to Hannah..who is so into this theme park & water park recreation whatsoever and no matter what...She is accusing me of promising to her less than half-hearted. Thus..the plan stays in KL where she said..."Doesnt matter where but KL..ada pool and near KLCC" Macam lah nak shopping giler...

The plan is still going on....

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Wishful Thinking...






Do you realise how fast time flies? Sometimes while you are doing nothing too...tup..tup..dah weekend..Eikk..banyak lagi benda yang tak terbuat ni! And than again I will come up with a resolve that next week I shall do better...

Well..the matter of fact is that being alive is an unsure thing but death is definite...Being alive we need to cherished the time that we still have to honor our promise "Laillahaillallah..". How do we do this..by all deeds that we do in the time that we have..How so...?? Believe in Allah swt mercies and the forever forgiving...Like a talk given by Prof. Jamal Badawi recently...Rasullullah saw. draws 2 points on a sand and draw a straight line between these 2 points...then he draw several other lines that is not straight but still linking the two points....He says the shortest distance between two points will always be the straight line. Think about it !! But this short distance is full of trials and tribulations while the longer line is merrier..this depicts part of life...we dont have to bother about much and we still move on and at the end of the day we wonder where has our life gone too...while the straight line...the trials and tribulations are actually the difficulty that we feel to fit it into the needs of this life...we found such difficulty to bring along our religion with us..we want it to be something private..it is and yet it is not...How do we go about doing this? Always remember Allah's mercies and that HE knows whatever it is and since we dont know..HE gives us freewill to choose..good or bad, right or wrong..in order to make good choices we need to educate ourself...we need good companions...we need reminders...etc...etc....being human...easily we fall and easily with faith we can come up again....Understand that this world is temporary even with all its glories....that the Hereafter is what we should aim for...and yet we fear..fear of the judgement of the wrongs that we did...the backbitings..the promise to Allah swt that we forgot along the way..the promise to obey HIM...but always believe that whatever it is only Allah swt knows....so we should not despair in knowing this...and keep on trying..there's no despairing and giving up!!

Well...what I want to say was just about WORRYING...we worry too much...will I pass the test.. will I have enough money...we lose sleep over things... and yet worrying about things like this we did not do anything to overcome it..we just worry for the sake of worrying...Since its already predetermined from 50000 years b4 earth is made so what we do has no basis in changing what is predetermined? Our Qadar...means measures... Here is where we oversimplify by thinking... whats the use of trying for example....since Allah has decree it all... Yes our life has been predetermined by Allah swt but we did not know what it is...we do not know what our actions can do...but by the choices that we have..the freewill to decide we can make good and bad decisions... thats why we have the Quran and Hadith to guide us...Its not as easy or as difficult that we might think..but definitely we need to seek knowledge..explore... find out from scholars for those issues that requires elaboration..do not merely take the word of someone whom we are not sure of their expertise...like going to a heart surgeon for consultation while the pain is only about your tooth..should have gone to the dentist first..Seek from those in the right field to make us understand...

Like my ustazah use to say also...Emm..I want to learn Arabic or memorize this doa..but we did not go and find a teacher..we did not do any homework...we did not take action..we just wish it and hopes everything will come to us without us doing nothing...When somebody ask something we tend to give out fatwa's...not really answering the questions...We say Ooo..this is Haram..this is Halal...Need to understand this more....
He..he...reminding me that the class is just next Sunday & Monday and I havent start on anything....thats when I find that time is wheezing so fast by me....