Reflections....As Hijrah 1430 and 2009 Flies In....

I am most thankful for good health....a functioning brain that enables me to think - decide & consider in making decisions, families and friends and the pleasures and rizki from Allah swt.

As I bade farewell to 2008.....my happiness are in...

• Adzrul graduated from Kursk and now working in Selayang Hospital.
• Azlan got his promotion
• Sg. Serai completed renovation and now partially ready for stay
• Ayah K'tan went for Hajj
• I got to get some lessons from Nora..yeah...
• Meeting CT both times I was in M'sia
• Taking care of Hajj kids..
• Ayman, Zayd & Hannah changes....
• Zayd & Hannah forthcoming trip to Zurich..
• Ayman overcoming his ups & downs and maintaining to be more consistent..
• Eidul Fitri and part Ramadhan with Adzrul in Dhahran...
• Tenant for Cahaya Height

My hopes...

• To get better with my word-to-word Quran translations class
• Ayman will fare better in IB and pursue his ambitions
• That our health can be better...
• Pick-up the skills in DP..for my own self satisfaction
• Be more consistent in my habits..
• Peace on Earth...Ms.Congeneality Sandra Bullock
• Many..many more...

Wanderings....

Most important is what you state at the end of your life...since we don't know when we will die we have to strive to live keeping our faith and away from sins....O'Allah make us die in the faith of Iman and make us to the ranks of the pious..

There are many stories with respect to this as guidance like the man who has killed 99 men and keep asking if he shall be forgiven until he died as to his killing of the men...he was on his way to get/find forgiveness when he died.......**this story can be found in Surah Al-Maidah..

An abid who was a pious person and due to the whispeing of syaitan he finally died as a disbeliever.... The abid was asked to take care of a lady by her brothers..although he followed strictly and keep his distance but by the wispering of syaitan he slowly began to get contact and rape the lady and killed her when she got pregnant and hide the truth from her brothers..he was finally caught and known what was done and was going to be killed when he ransomed his faith so that he will be saved from the punishment and set free..and he denounce his faith when syaitan said that the abid will be saved but that is what he must do first to get syaitan's help....the story can be found in Shaik Anwar Awlaki " The Hereafter "...

As I was trying to recall the many stories, to help me in my own wanderings...Yet again the news of the current attack by the Israelis on Gaza and killed many Muslims. What can we do....??

Awal Muharram..

Salaam Maal Hijrah / Awal Muharram to all....

As for me..many reflections the year that has passed...many hopes for the year in coming. Alhamdulilah for the graces of Allah swt. May we are kept firm in faith and on the straight path always insya'allah....

Week In Review

• Sunday 21/12/2008 was Hannah 13th. Birthday...looking at 5 years we are here couldn't believe the young lady has grown. We went for dinner at Applebees. Thus it was a dinner for Zayd too....since his b'day on 23/12 celebrating 15 years of life. I told them it should actually be for moms since they are the ones who has to endure pain for more than a day. babies just has to look cute...
• Telephone bill shocker SR2000....for this month!!
• Tuesday 23/12..today is Zayd's 15th. Birthday....and also the day I get my new counter top in the kitchen..looks nice now...
• OMG...the heater broke and leaks in the garage...by the time I realise it..the whole room was flooded. Got to remove many stuffs out and Aramco maintenance came to remove the carpet..now its bare and cold. Not sure if the wet carpet gonna dry and smell ok to be re-installed..if not carpet baru pulak..
• Over the week..sooo many people dok mengeluh exchange rate is tumbling down..we are facing abt 25% reduction now..but alhamdulilah....isteri, anak & harta adalah ujian Allah swt semata-mata...

How Do You Do What You Have To Do..??

I believe we always have choices like either YES or NO..This or That..Go or Stay...Accept or Decline...Sometimes there are more choices that you can go for....Anyway..how do you decide to get angry at something that has happen or not to get angry and yet reprimand the offender..how about when this got to do with your kids...

If tak take action..takut jadi..Anakku Sazali with Bapak tawu..nye... If you take the wrong action takut pulak lain akibat nye..So do you really have choices here??? Takut juga tak fair and dituduh unfair...adik tu takpe..bila abang tak boleh pulak...and so on...

How do you say or show that you love each of your kids the same..No doubt you love all of them without question..But indeed you actually love each of them differently..But fairly?? How do you choose or even decide this?? This is the matter of fact question for me...You can't even say that you love A more than B bcos that's not it..it's just that its different in a way with each child or person...

How can you say you still love soebody but do not want to have anything to do with them? Not even to make time to see them...? Most times people are judged by their actions in addition to what they say....

Anyway...to make mistakes and realising it... is to regret it happening..with regret than come actions of preventing it and learn from it..to rub salt into an open wound is by no means will make somebody learn from their mistakes. Will this be enough? Sometimes yes and sometimes no..so back to the dilemma....Poneng kepalo den...

Hannah is 13th yesterday ad Zayd will be 15th. tomorrow

Hannah was 13th yesterday....no party..only dinner at Applebees which she couldn't finish..Anyway it was nice...

The thoughts that goes on in my mind yang keeps me occupied most hours ....

Summaries....

Since my last entries....these are the things that happened. Will talk about them more later...

• Zayd also will be going t Zurich with Hannah...at the moment I do not have any plans to go with them due to other commitments plus it is only a 4 day trip for them.
• I was in Malaysia from 14/11 till 30/11...
• Attended Shaikh Yusuf Estes talk at USJ2 masjid on 24/11..
• Villa Subang Alam is ready after renovation still under inspection for further works..install AC, curtains, kitchen cabinets..bought a washer & dryer first..just in case..
• Adzrul start work at Selayang Hospital on 17/11..got sort of an efficiency quarters...bought some soft furnishing to make it comfortable n cosy...
• I attended a few classes with Norana and met Zahirah my blogger craft friend...learn some stroke works...hope to replicate them soon...
• Was driving in heavy rain ost times in Msia..
• Had to go to Munawarrah a couple of times to get the tudungs..couldn't believe it is usually sold out by afternoon...Grab about 20++ for Dhahranian's.. it was sold out too..only a few left to show...
• Took care of several kiddies & teenagers while their parents perform Hajj...sweet.. especially at chow time when everything goes beautifully...
• Had a BBQ for Hajj party....will post some pics soon...

This week is clean-up time plus trying to generate enough motivation to start my evening walk again and to paint some stuffs..plus make some floral crafts...there's demand but supplier ni still hybernating....